there’s something about big fights and pushing the relationship to it’s limits. there’s something in me that just makes me realize that i have to hang on to this. there’s something about thinking if it should really just be thrown away or not, and i know that it’s not what i want. i can’t imagine a day where being apart from you is what i would ever want. when you said all the things that you did, it just snapped me out of it. suddenly, the fight didn’t matter. as long as we were still together after it, it would work out. the stuggles and hardships are tests that help us realize we are far from perfect. although some things that you said really got into my nerves, i still try to shake it out of my head and not consider the pain after all. however, getting through these trials together make us perfect for each other. i love you more each day, because as time goes on, it’s the only proof of how strong our relationship really is.

I don’t give a damn you pervert. You’ll pay for everything. Just wait. Wait till I finish plotting my revenge. :)

I’m just going to stop.  I’m not going to hold back anymore.  I think i just need to cry it all out. allowing myself to do that seems like a much better idea than holding it all in, waiting for that one thing to trigger a waterfall of emotions. i know that i don’t have to cry. but i’m allowed to. and i think that every once in a while, you just have to be able to let it out. whether you’re with your best friend, your mom, your boyfriend, or if you’re alone. i usually find crying to be very therapeutic. it calms me, it helps me clear my head. after a good waterworks session, i feel a lot better. i was never the kind of person who could just hold things in. i have to allow myself to put my guard down every once in a while, because only after that can i begin to fix myself and slowly move past it.